It's like each day reaches a new peak of excitement. So my preperation for Hajj focused mainly on Makkah. I knew I was walking into history in Medina, after 11 years of teaching I think I know the history of Muhammad well(ish). Today was like everytime I told the story of how our Qibla was changed from Palestine to Makkah, just a story. Till i prayed, saw and felt what it was like to pray in Masjide Qiblatain. Here's a question to make you think, was the Qibla of Islam always Ka'ba or were we redirected due to the taunts of people?
Oh em gee moments all morning. I called my sister just so i could tell her how I went to Uhud!!!! It was a spiritual climax for me to see where Muhammad's timeline took place. Realising the battles, Badr, Uhad and Khandaq took place in Ramadhan and Shawwal as those were winter months after Hijra. Theres a road called Hijra road that leads to Makkah, yes my lame excitement at names lives on in the Saudi Kingdom.
I guess before the Ziyarats I should tell you about my fajr fiasco. Basically, the alarm my roomy set was still going off at 6:05am when I woke up. So our plan to do Shab and Fajr crashed completely. So guess who's been awake since 6:05am. So apologies for the incoheriancy.
I was told how "unkind" thoughts are kafrable in Hajj! Now that was ouchy! So I've made a change from the original stance of "thinking it is ok" to "thoughts manifest into action". Thats going to hard for me. And apparently wearing a nappy in ehram is recommended. I'm actually so terrified of wearing my ehram, yet in the same breath, I'm super excited.
It's crazy how this journey is making me confront me to the essence of who I am. My attitude of God's rahmania and His rules are leading me to question alot of the things I have seen or heard. I know He is the centre of this journey so, why is this all about me. Things I intend to reconcile and confront throughout this journey.
Today was an emotional and spiritual rollercoaster. Several things happened today that made me want to give in, but then theres always that one little thing that makes you want to carry on.
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