Day 2

Monday

The day I looked forward to most, the part of my journey that I wanted to live to the max was Baquee and Medina. The dream was to see His home, but the level of excitement that is attached to seeing every Imam. Now that's special. Every Imam exudes a special magic that resonates throughout you soul. When people go on Ziyarah and discover a new found belief in God it's the feeling that these personalities create. 

So my expectation of Medina was the serenity and peace of Muhammad, the humanity of Fatimah, the peace of Hassan, the knowledge of Muhammad Baqir and the scientific knowledge of Sadiq. So I was aiming high. The moment I saw the green dome my heart literally melted. Like ice in the Medina sunshine. 

The feeling was overwhelming, literally overwhelming. I didn't know what to feel or how to understand it. So many amazing personalities in one place would have that impact. Last night still is a blue of emotion. Tears, smiles, laughter aside all I could do is stare. 

I always knew Baquee would be my nemesis, I couldn't stand there and see what they had done to the grave of the lady of light, how could they. Whenever I think Baquee a silent tear rolls down my cheek. Yet, when I finally got to see what they had done to her even after her death, I was nothing but angry. I stood there in utter shock, not just disgusted at the fact ladies are not allowed to go inside anymore, not at the tearing down of Baytal Huzn but at the idea of even after her death they won't let her be in peace. It's disgusting. The utter disgust, the anger was just shocking. I'm a pacifist at heart and by nature, I'm excitable but not angry. 

What really did make me happy and calm again, was to recite Hadise Kisaa where it was revealed. Now that's jannah. Everyone know I love a good story. But Hadise Kisaa makes my soul sore. The angels coming down to listen to the story of the leaders of our universe. Now that's special. My mind will forever cherish that moment. Spiritual snapshot time. 

Medina will always be special to me, but just for the record, it's still Najaf <3 so far!