I want to see peace, not just in my world but the entirity of my universe. My world revolves around a global phenomenon of humanity. That includes everyone. I want to see the peace I see in my grandfathers face when he fights the fog of Alzheimer's yet demands I call him nana. I love the peace in my grandmothers eyes, the pure admiration with which she looks at her daughter my mum. The most important peace I love to watch is the unconditional, pure love I see in my mums eyes when she looks at her 4 children (now 5) the way her eyes light up when we play nice - rare occasions. I see my Rabb in my mum. For every tear I cry she matches with a dua to her Rabb. I need to describe my relationship with this lady, not as just my mother but my bestfriend. My greatest supporter and my best critic. I can come rushing with a new idea to be cut down to shreds yet know its because I'm loved. Just so you know my ideas are pretty ridiculous. At the same time I can spend all day worrying about something that just by telling her goes away. The calmness my mother commands, the compassion the love with she shares with all of humanity. I'm pretty sure I've never heard a word against anyone from her mouth. She's so taking me to jannah. But before I get there she is my peice of jannah.
I want to feel love. I spent time describing my mum because it's difficult to describe love without knowing her. To me love is acceptance. The freedom to be who you are and be accepted. I find everyone tries to change, manipulate or even alter others. Love is freedom. You are free to be you and be worshipped in your own right JUST FOR BEING YOU. My mum does that. You never walk away feeling unworthy. You're special. Just for being you. I want to see and be more of that. That's my dream. May no one ever walk away from me feeling less than what they are.
Recognition. That's my next dream. Hand in hand with love. I want to recognise the good the bad and ugly inside me. I want to change it to reflect the peace and love i expect. The Law of Reflection establishes that what we see in others is a reflection of ourselves. Recognising that will establish a pattern. The less of the ugly that you see the less is within you. Karmic energy fixed is what will happen in my dream.
We all dream of a happy ending, in order for me to visualise what mine is. For me to work towards it i will need to describe it here. Jannah. I want to see my Rabb. Not with my physical eyes but through my soul. I want a soul to be proud to show him. Wear my scars with pride. Show Him how i lived His plan not mine. I want to feel my God. I want to be able to seek His counsel, appreciate His wisdom. That's the dream to manifest. For me that's my jannah. Him and me. Me and Him.
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