Forgiveness

Forgiveness is sacred. It's the turning back to your God from transgressions. You remember some, forget some yet they are all recorded. When i think about forgiveness, i think about about others, all those that have caused me harm, hurt me in some way. The power of self i guess. Then when dwell on all that has happened i think about devine law, recognise that the harm was the will of my God too. He allowed it to happened so in reality, i have been caused no harm. 

I have a firm belief in the hands of people being used to perform the miracles of my God, so why do i have the right to feel wronged. Tonight, i forgive, not because i feel sorry for myself or i have been told to relieve myself of the burdens i carry, in the form of pain, but because its not my chart to keep score. One judge! 

So now tonight, the focus is on my repentence. No one is perfect - not even the girl in headscarf. Tonight i turn back, not to go backwards, but forwards. In order to move forwards i feel devine help is required. You cant request help unless you clean the past misgivings. 

Forgiveness is journey, a journey back to the God who created you. He created perfection, which i tarnished, broke, dirtied and desecrated. 

Rabb translates to nourisher. Think about nourishment - automatically thinks about food. So within food, there are categories, there's healthy food, there's good food, bad food and junk food. Depending on what i eat, and the level of nourishment within that food will lead to my level of nourishment. Now when i look at my Rabb, depending on what i take from Him, request, believe and trust, thats what i will see within me. 

I can only take what is my capacity, when i hold sin (go against devine laws) i fill myself with what is not good. Lowering my capacity. Then i turn to Him and i make requests, im full to near capacity with sin, so i have less space for devine blessings. When i beg and beseech forgiveness i free up capacity to receive.