Blessings

Sometimes its the things we take for granted that we should be most grateful for. Its a bold statement, but think about it. Oxgen. Lungs. Water. Enzymes. Liver. Kidneys. I could go on in bold statements, i'll stop there  for the sake of your time, but if i was to write out what I had, count my blessings, words wouldnt be enough. For example; you all know in what high esteem i hold my mum, words dont do this woman next to me justice. Papa, bhaijaan and didi even baby Hash are my blessing. I've never lived a life without grandparents alhamdulillah for the barakah (blessing) they are to me. I'm lucky beyond measure. 

To be honest I'm not lucky. I'm blessed. Blessed by a God who is more than words. A Lord that is Rahma. No matter how much I say against Him. He doesnt punish me. He tests me and all I can do is feel sorry for myself. For those of you who weren't subject to the "pity party for one" consider yourself truely blessed. I mean blessed to the max. 

Going back to my blessings.

Theres my mosque, I'd say local but as its a 20 minute drive away, I'll stick to mosque. It's actually an Imambargah (google the difference). I complain and moan. Not about the mosque but the people. Today as I sit here near my nani's spot I feel lucky. This is home. My soul home. I feel blessed. I'm part of a community that tries. Sometimes unsuccesfully but tries. Theres always a program and its never empty here. They praise my God in their own way. With a consistent message. Trust Him. They run classes and madressa's teach the word of God. Give us a place to meet and communally worship God systematically. I'm grateful for Khojas. There I said it. 

Tonight's laylatul Bar'a the night of release. Allah swt releases us from the burden of sin and musibah (tribulations). My God in all His rahma says "ask and I will answer". Tonight He decrees destiny, life, death, sustenance and health. As always I came with a list of demands. If i dont ask the Almighty who else can I ask. Before I make my demands. Which are just that. I'm not easily pleased,  I'm a princess remember. I have so much in the last year to be thankful for. What don't I have. Tell me. You name it I have it. It's not that i deserve it. I truely dont. Im over blessed. My God has granted me all I need. He grants without measure. No one goes empty handed. If you're not granted your demand (aka dua) you'll get strength to cope with what you are granted or something better. Now that's a deal. Who could ask for more. 

It's a toughy for me to think of this night last year. My life was different. I was different. I can't say i'm better so i'll stick to different. But the realisation that tonite is 1 year on, shows how quickly we change, our lives change. Our worlds collide and collapse. Yet He stands by us throughout it all. He grants us guardians, our own angels. Strength. Guidance. When you need it. It will appear. Just as He cooled the fire for Ibraheim, He will send what you need when you need it. 

Keep the faith. You're all in my duas/demands tonight. Stay true to your God. Gratitude. The more thankful you are the more He will give you. Shukr and Hamd.